Haha.

This is a resurrection. I honestly never thought I would return to this site. I thought I was over it bur reminiscence, procrastination, irrational choices to do drugs, and insomnia led me here. Hahah. Doesn't sound like I've changed much huh? Well to be frank, I'm pretty different. Whether its for the good or bad is debatable; good in the sense that I have more direction, a better sense of myself, and responsibilities.... but bad in the sense that I may be more cynical, a bit more self-destructive, riskier in different ways, less patience and tolerance, and less friends. One word can sum up the last sentence that explains why it all happened... change.

Well maybe I should recap my life for a hot second. I now go to Cal State Los Angeles and very close to graduating, "technically" live with Esther even though she doesn't sleep here for the week, have a job at a company with a lot of potential but I may be getting tired of, and umm... I guess that's all I can think of. My mind is kind of wandering due to the weed I just smoked. Oh yeah, there are a lot of things that haven't changed about me as well. I'm still into pot... but more educated about it. It's funny though because as much of a pothead I am, it's not really affecting my life. Well it did cause me to lose a best friend but frankly, she's a bit too much right now. In terms of academics and mentality, it hasn't really affected me. Mentality meaning it doesn't affect my short term memory too much. Wow. It's 3am and I gotta wake up at 5. I should really sleep because I have to study soon. I may be updating this more often soon. I may are the two key words.
  • Current Mood
    awake awake

im bored too...

1. bear bear cause of the fact that his penis is incredibly small. Maybe mentioning him here will boost his ego, which was constantly being let down each time he takes a shower and pee pees.

Name 2 parts of your body that you wouldn't change:

1. sexy vagina i mean buff, long, volleyball built legs.
2. crooked pinkies cuz it makes me unique. i can make the roxy sign, heart, or wu tang clan hand gesture with this bad boys.

Name 3 gigs that blew you away:

1. Jimmy eat world at the Glasshouse... by far the best intimate concert. i touched myself there btw.
2. Coachella!!!!! this would be first but i thought about it 2nd.
3. tough call... NRG in San Bernadino... got to know my kitten there. still memorable despite the fact that 30 cars got broken into, including my own.

Name 4 items of clothing you like in your wardrobe:

1. Green beanie with a beak! I'm so hiphoppotomus
2. PF flyers... wait through them out cuz they were holey. Black converse.
3. Baby blue "morning wood" shirt.. given by my lub. I feel so hot with it on. but im sure people are like "ewww. gook" when i wear it. screw them morning wood haters >=O.
4. brown banana republic jacket. i feel so GQ with it on. GQ = Gay Queer.

Name 5 websites you couldn't live without:

1. www.narutofan.com... visit every week.
2. mail.yahoo.com... i dont believe in hotmail cuz im not a hot male
3. www.google.com (2nd that jer bear!)
4. www.ebay.com (2nd that as well!)
5. www.yourmomsitsonmyface.com

Name 6 places you'd like to visit:

1. NY... visit cousin who lives near central Park :D
2. Amsterdam... yeah... I wanna see... tourist stuff there.. yeahhh thats the ticket
3. Texas... I miss my doggies T_T
4. Frisco. never been... you know whats pathetic? i forgot how to spell that city the right way... major brain fart.
5. PI becuase of the fact that people will follow me and think I'm a movie star and ask me for my clothes that i can apparently get again at the states brad.
6. China. Mainly cuz i got chinky eyes. I'll feel right at home there.

Name 7 movies you have to watch again and again:

1. Harold and Kumar. ITs sOoO EXTREME!!
2. PI. I feel smrat when i watch it
3. monster Squad. 80s b-movies rox your sox.
4. Donnie Darko. I wanna time travel T_T
5. Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. Jim Carrey came up so much compared to firemarshall bill
6. Royal Tenenbuams
7. shite... mmmm Jule Jordan's Asian compilation.. such movie stars include: Cris Taliana, Nautica, Katsumi, Jade Hsu, and other noteworthy actresses that need not be mentioned. =P

Name 8 words you'd use to describe yourself:

1. Chink
2. Long
3. short in other aspects T_T
4. Nocturnal
5. Spatial
6. negligently profrane
7. ADD
8. frugal

Name 9 things you love to eat and drink:

1. fried rice
2. chicken
3. salt and pepper chicken
4. fried chicken
5. roasted chicken
6. teriyaki chicken
7. orange slice
8. Rasberry iced tea
9. nutella

Name 10 CDs you couldn't live without:

:sweating: n/a i dont listen to music by default cuz my music preference is blank atm

::new question::

Name 10 CDs you're listening to at the moment:
1. Air- talkie walkie
2. Air- moon safari
3. Immortal technique vol 1
4. immortal technique vol 2
5. The shins
6. Frou Frou/gradenstate soundtrack
7. Modest mouse- the new ablum... forgot what its called
8. Bjork- Medula
9. damn.. pathetic... thats all at the moment.

Name 2 Cds you listened to in the past and would like to mention:

1. Mars Volta
2. Sparta- wiretap scars


ho~
  • Current Music
    4th branch- immortal technique nigguh!

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i accidently went to live journal to write a poem. woops. maybe i still got it?

twisted in the sick, then out

Hatred for no reason
Through the four seasons
Adjustments to currency of emotions
Affected with no effects of commotion

Hungry for intellect
Failure to recollect
Tasteless compliance of normalities
Exiled in Lifeless chivalry

Ironic Juxtaposition
What is your situation?
Postponement of realization
There without resolution.

Forces of reconciliation
Life and convolution
Unexpected solution
Endless questions

Hitherto Diversions,
Psychosocial Malignancy
Supposed legitimacy
Possibilities to reflect


not quite sure if this is finalized. i sux. >
  • Current Music
    nothing. absolutely nothing. >=O

hey a chinese is back


Hey I’m back. Sorry I’ve been INCOGNITO :: I capitalize that cuz someone close and dear to me said he/she likes the way "we" use that now. who's we? hehe. I haven’t been in a public writing mode in a long time. Oh man… flashbacks about the months that have previously passed!! I'd rather not talk about what's been up lately. It’s really tiresome to explain some of it and a lot is really personal. But I need to get back into writing. I swear. I've been enunciating shit all wrong lately… did I even spell that big word right just now? my sentences are all fragmented and I can’t keep a convo with anyone anymore. =P you think your ability to write affects the way you talk? Uhh… well… yeah genius. Stupid q. too much party party lately. Anyway, I’ll try to take this hobby/important tool of life and and and follow the famous Morse high school rules of conduct, “Expected Schoolwide Learning Results… ESLRs,” that’s incorporated with the hobby of writing. It’s only good for you to filter out your emotions and shit. Oh wait before I get into deep wonderfully gay thought… I dunno how this journal is going turn out. I’m sorry if I offend certain people. I haven’t written in a long time. Anyway. Lemme get into writing mode…


 


A way of practice… practice what? Your writing abilities and you’re stamina… you Italian stallion…. Here goes:


 


K just felt like writing. 9:51. this is your time. Get better! This is the time of you’re… err… my…. Well my dag nab it. Mann! Get to the point nigger. This is the time of you ejaculation stamina! Not very long is it. But I remember reading about how males age 18 to err…. 18 to 23  are clocked at 10 to 20 minutes. Wait a minute. I fall into that statistic and I’m on the lower side of it. Wtf… I need to practice more. You’re probably thinking… “What? Did he say practice?”  Yes I use masturbation as a means to practice my sexual stamina. You’re probably wondering how I do it. I know I know… some people say that, “sex isn’t the same as masturbation.” Well yeah that still applies. But what… is there any other better fuckin way to practice? Sticking your penis in a hole in a swimming pool for instance isn’t really that smart. I recall hearing a story dealing with that.  My cousins… I put that in italics because they’re not really my cousins. They’re just


 


 


Just keep on elaborating with remembering anything. Like write and write and write, then let the sentence take you to your next pondering thought. Does this sentence make sense? Is it hard to understand? I don’t know either. But here check this out, whenever my friends and I get together, we love to elaborate on jokes to make things much more funny, we kill the hell out of a jokes that are said. Hehe the whole time, from the beginning to the end of I guess let’s say… laughing matter…. we’re just busting up until everyone stops laughing.   I guess it’s kind of like that. DO this exercise to improve your writing. It helps you in some weird abstract way I think. Hey not THAT way…I know you’re thinking of it…. Did he really masturbate? NO. The way implied in the previous paragraph.  K I lost my train of thought. I’m kinda high right now.


 


p.s. Guys lie about the act of committing masturbation.



 


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Articles I Wrote for the Crusader.  1999-2000. Leslie’s Place. 29 October 1999.


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story of my current emotions. it may not relate but but to me it does. I don't care to translate cuz i dont feel the need to. YOU should know.

Faith, you're driving me away
You do it everyday
You don't mean it
But it hurts like hell

My brain says I'm receiving pain
A lack of oxygen
From my life support
My iron lung

We're too young to fall asleep
To cynical to speak
We are losing it
Can't you tell?

We scratch our eternal itch
A twentieth century bitch
And we are grateful for
Our iron lung

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

Suck, suck your teenage thumb
Toilet trained and dumb
When the power runs out
We'll just hum

This, this is our new song
Just like the last one
A total waste of time
My iron lung
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK
And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

story of my life. well its over and it ended the way i hope it wouldnt. but right know i dont really care. cuz im not me right now. I have become exactly opposite. and she only pushed me to this extent. well maybe i should translate just cuz i feel i should to others, though i hope one person got it the first time around.

Faith, you're driving me away
You do it everyday
You don't mean it
But it hurts like hell

This is basically how i felt for the past two weeks.

My brain says I'm receiving pain
A lack of oxygen
From my life support
My iron lung

This is my attitude towards how i felt. Like the pain was way too unbearable to handle. but I was able to withstand it cuz i was strong enough with the help "my iron lung." thats just cool to read cuz i really do believe my lungs are as strong as iron. and thats not a good thing. And in another sense, its alludes to this other fact that I was chronically doing pot to just face the pain. my week of hell made my health problem worse. wow... yet another way i found I got hurt.

We're too young to fall asleep
To cynical to speak
We are losing it
Can't you tell?

Well this part can mean a lot i guess. "We're too young to fall asleep" i guess this means like our relationship was doomed to begin with, which is reinforced by the next line. she was way too cynical to speak, to acknowledge, care for me. the next lines are self-explanatory.

We scratch our eternal itch
A twentieth century bitch
And we are grateful for
Our iron lung

"We scratch our eternal itch." wow. this line is one of my favs because it gave me hope. to me, this means that we connected in a way that I only could dream. I opened up to her in a way that I never thought I would. In a way it makes me think that, that fact alone shows that we could work. our relationship wasnt doomed because we were able to connect in ways only lasting couples would. but the next line... geez, can it be more obvious? i guess that can make reference to how i feel she might use the fact that i opened up against me. man if she does, shes exactly what that line states. in a not so literal term, she acted in a way only the 20th century could characterize. by that i mean, like she acted in a way that goes against traditions. i showed her my heart, she needed to see the surgerical tools. i gave her my time, she gave me back a watch. like I only acted the way i thought a boyfriend should act, but she dove into in far deeper that it should have been.

ill finish the rest later. i need to sleep.


The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

Suck, suck your teenage thumb
Toilet trained and dumb
When the power runs out
We'll just hum

This, this is our new song
Just like the last one
A total waste of time
My iron lung
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK
And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon




well another thing that sucks is she finally did something that i hoped she would have done at least once during our relationship. bummer i dont care for it anymore. =/
  • Current Music
    radiohead-climbing up the wall

long distance (draft)

So what else can I ask for
You're a wonderful surprise
That we can open once you realize
You can soar in the sky
and ill be there as your tour guide

So what else can i ask for?
What can i suggest?
You're one of my greatest
You showed it when you opened my door
(well there’s that one thing)

[chorus]
Our relationship and its distance
Makes me miss you every instance
I can't help but think of this
I can't just visit you
I can't steal a kiss

Well I don't mean to be cruel or sore
But the distance between us is a factor
every mile and every hour
away from what I adore
Makes me wonder what its all for


[bridge]
And it’s so hard to explain
I don't mind our weekend rendezvous
But the planning and the timeframe
When I’m not with you
Affects me at night
But I’ll still hang on as of now
Cause it will be worth it
Oh will be worth it
A year from now

[chorus] x2
And I can’t steal a kiss yeah
I can’t Oh I can’t
Cause this distance, this long distance
Makes me think of you every instance
  • Current Music
    maroon 5-this love