johnniefive im alive! (johnnie) wrote,
johnniefive im alive!
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story of my current emotions. it may not relate but but to me it does. I don't care to translate cuz i dont feel the need to. YOU should know.

Faith, you're driving me away
You do it everyday
You don't mean it
But it hurts like hell

My brain says I'm receiving pain
A lack of oxygen
From my life support
My iron lung

We're too young to fall asleep
To cynical to speak
We are losing it
Can't you tell?

We scratch our eternal itch
A twentieth century bitch
And we are grateful for
Our iron lung

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

Suck, suck your teenage thumb
Toilet trained and dumb
When the power runs out
We'll just hum

This, this is our new song
Just like the last one
A total waste of time
My iron lung
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK
And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

story of my life. well its over and it ended the way i hope it wouldnt. but right know i dont really care. cuz im not me right now. I have become exactly opposite. and she only pushed me to this extent. well maybe i should translate just cuz i feel i should to others, though i hope one person got it the first time around.

Faith, you're driving me away
You do it everyday
You don't mean it
But it hurts like hell

This is basically how i felt for the past two weeks.

My brain says I'm receiving pain
A lack of oxygen
From my life support
My iron lung

This is my attitude towards how i felt. Like the pain was way too unbearable to handle. but I was able to withstand it cuz i was strong enough with the help "my iron lung." thats just cool to read cuz i really do believe my lungs are as strong as iron. and thats not a good thing. And in another sense, its alludes to this other fact that I was chronically doing pot to just face the pain. my week of hell made my health problem worse. wow... yet another way i found I got hurt.

We're too young to fall asleep
To cynical to speak
We are losing it
Can't you tell?

Well this part can mean a lot i guess. "We're too young to fall asleep" i guess this means like our relationship was doomed to begin with, which is reinforced by the next line. she was way too cynical to speak, to acknowledge, care for me. the next lines are self-explanatory.

We scratch our eternal itch
A twentieth century bitch
And we are grateful for
Our iron lung

"We scratch our eternal itch." wow. this line is one of my favs because it gave me hope. to me, this means that we connected in a way that I only could dream. I opened up to her in a way that I never thought I would. In a way it makes me think that, that fact alone shows that we could work. our relationship wasnt doomed because we were able to connect in ways only lasting couples would. but the next line... geez, can it be more obvious? i guess that can make reference to how i feel she might use the fact that i opened up against me. man if she does, shes exactly what that line states. in a not so literal term, she acted in a way only the 20th century could characterize. by that i mean, like she acted in a way that goes against traditions. i showed her my heart, she needed to see the surgerical tools. i gave her my time, she gave me back a watch. like I only acted the way i thought a boyfriend should act, but she dove into in far deeper that it should have been.

ill finish the rest later. i need to sleep.


The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

Suck, suck your teenage thumb
Toilet trained and dumb
When the power runs out
We'll just hum

This, this is our new song
Just like the last one
A total waste of time
My iron lung
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon
The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon

And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK
And if you're frightened
You can be frightened
You can be, it's OK

The headshrinkers, they want everything
My uncle Bill, my Belisha beacon




well another thing that sucks is she finally did something that i hoped she would have done at least once during our relationship. bummer i dont care for it anymore. =/
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